Erotic Target Chapter 1

Sexual electricity ignited Scarlett's fatigued body to life. Dylan's hand cupped her between her legs and his lips had taken over hers. Scarlett was tired from packing at Dylan's and wanted to get a good night's sleep before moving Dylan's stuff in tomorrow. He had other ideas.

She wanted to fend him off. To let her body relax and repose before the all-day workout they faced. Scarlett hated moving. But Dylan loved her and wanted to live with her. He broke his lease to be with her every day and every night. As Dylan's fingers slid inside Scarlett, she figured this was one of the reasons why.

The first orgasm came up on her quickly. The last remnants of resistance faded into the pleasant sexual oblivion Scarlett was experiencing at Dylan's hand. He pulled his slick fingers out and his cock took their place. He gently rocked her beneath him.

Scarlett considered herself a sexual person, in touch with her body and her mind. It was because of that she knew Dylan's penis would never completely satisfy her. Guilt shrouded her mind the moment that thought snuck in. She batted it away and concentrated on squeezing Dylan from the inside.

She gripped his shoulders and hugged his hips with her legs as he moved in and out. Sex shouldn't be a deal breaker, she thought. She always enjoyed herself. And he was great with his tongue. That was much harder to find than a big dick. And he loved her so much. She was safe with him. She needed that after everything.

Dylan had waited patiently for her to love him. He was a patient friend and eventually became her patient lover.

Scarlett was wet and enjoyed feeling Dylan inside her. He continued pumping, building up to his orgasm.

"Scarlett, oh, baby," he moaned when he was getting close. She wasn't yet satisfied and thought about taking a shower to finish herself off. There was no need to rub it in his face that she needed to come a couple more times with her much larger vibrator in order to be sated.

Dylan's cock grew slightly larger inside Scarlett's pussy signaling his impending explosion. It was only in these brief seconds that his cock rubbed her just right. A few thrusts later he was done.

Scarlett hugged his body as he lay on top of her. She could feel the small beads of sweat that covered his back. Her unsatisfied lust was being reluctantly transmuted into affection. Scarlett caressed him and covered his scratchy cheek with feathery kisses.

Dylan lazily rolled off of her keeping his hand on her stomach. Scarlett started to slide off of her side of the bed to slip into the shower.

"Where are you going, hon?"

"I want to take a shower. We probably won't have time in the morning. Lilly is going to be at your place to help with the move at seven," Scarlett said.

"Do you have to? I love falling asleep holding you. Come back. Please," Dylan begged.

Scarlett's body had already begun ratcheting down the second Dylan spoke. It didn't take long for her to give in and return to bed.

Their nude bodies cozied up to each other under her oversized quilt. Dylan was asleep in seconds. Scarlett had always been jealous of his close relationship with sleep. Scarlett's relationship with it was ambivalent at best. When she didn't dream, it was a luxury she appreciated and enjoyed. Unfortunately, the nightmares stole her peace constantly.  

Pleasure Cruise Lines: Tally Part 5

The dildo went to the furthest reaches of Tally's womb.  There was mild pain as Kylie pushed harder and faster against Tally.  She was having to use her shoulders to bear all of the force and not get knocked over.  It was very confusing because Kylie had been so concerned about Tally's enjoyment up until then.  But after a couple minutes the sound of Kylie's scream when she came told Tally why she was doing that, why she had been ignoring her.  Tally was glad that Kylie had come.  She felt bad for being the first one to come a few minutes ago.  But Kylie's tongue...

 Tally looked up at Mark and found him ogling Kylie.  Tally felt a tiny twinge of something.  She didn't want to admit to herself that it was probably jealousy.  She needed to take control of the situation.

Tally pulled away from Kylie and pulled the dildo out of her pussy.  She resumed her position with her mouth an inch from Mark's cock and her ass facing John and Bill. 

Before she said anything John started fucking Kylie's mouth.  Tally looked up at Mark and winked.  She could at least maintain the illusion that she was in control of her emotions.  Even if she wasn't.

"Bill, why don't you fuck while I kiss all over Mark."  Yes, Tally could play the sophisticated prostitute if she really wanted to. 

Bill grinned and suggested they all head to the bed.  Tally was glad he suggested this as her knees were already getting carpet burn.

All five of them went to the massive bedroom where Tally had been licked, sucked, and fucked multiple times by Mark just the night before.  They got into their various positions and the true orgy began.

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Tally began sucking Mark off, trying her best to stuff the realization that she was truly desperate for his and only his attentions.  She felt Bill grab her hips from behind and he slowly entered her.  After the large dildo he felt only average.  He was probably pretty big himself but she was stretched out. 

Tally blocked out being fucked as she deep throated Mark's cock and massaged his balls.  She pulled out and licked up and down his shaft and then sucked on one ball and then the other while stroking him.  His hands in her hair guided her mouth back to his cock and she deep throated him again.  Like last night, his balls began moving up and he shot his load down her throat again.  She made the swallowing motions and only then noticed that she was still being fucked from behind. 

Bill was really ramming her as she pulled her mouth off of Mark's cock.  She smiled at Mark and he gave her a warm smile back and mouthed 'thank you'.  Tally beamed.

She looked over to see Kylie getting banged from behind just as she was.  All the men seemed to really like that position.  Tally pulled her torso up to give her wrists a break and Bill immediately latched on to both of her small breasts, squeezing her flesh and pinching her nipples.  Then he sucked her on neck, all the while moving in and out of her more slowly.

It was starting to hurt a little even with the slower speed.  Tally rubbed her clit to compensate.  That did the trick.  She was able to enjoy the sex again. 

Mark came over to her and kissed her deeply while replacing her hand with his own.  His lips electrified Tally as she ran her hands through his hair and up and down his back.  She could feel him getting hard again which turned her on even more. 

John let out a moan as he came inside Kylie and unceremoniously pulled out.  Mark pulled away from Tally, bringing her back to the reality that she was not getting fucked by Mark but by Bill who seemed to be going on forever in the same motion. 

"Bill, let me have a taste of that," John said as he eyed Tally. 

"Lay on your back," John ordered with a smile as he jacked himself off.  Mark was eying Kylie on the bed. 

Tally kept her eyes on Mark as she did as she was told and spread her legs.  Her view of Mark was obstructed as Kylie came over and straddled Tally's head.  She lowered her pussy slowly to Tally's mouth. Tally licked, enjoying Kylie's juices and swollen lips.  She reached up and massaged her clit causing Kylie to moan. 

John was doing her slowly, taking his time with each stroke and squeezing her tits at the same time.  Tally found that she actually liked how John felt inside of her as well as his hands.  It reminded her of Mark. 

Kylie's pussy rose out of reach of Tally's tongue but not out of view.  She was still straddling Tally's head as Mark entered her from behind.  Tally could see his cock find her entrance and her hand guide it deeper.  He was soon filling Kylie up inches from Tally's face. 

The beginnings of jealousy welled up inside Tally and she panicked.  She couldn't freak out.  Whether she liked it or not, this was her job right now.  She willed her feelings to disappear.  When they didn't she tried another tactic on herself.  Mark clearly wants someone who can pleasure him in many different ways including by being in a group, she reasoned.  I can be that girl--I will prove it, Tally thought.

This seemed to work as she was able to concentrate on enjoying being done by John, wondering if Mark was noticing this, and secretly hoping it pleased him to no end if he did.

Kylie and Mark moved away from her head.  Kylie lay down on her back next to Tally and Mark entered her again after Bill turned down an offer by him to take a turn in Kylie's pussy.  Instead, Bill lowered his cock near Kylie's head.  She leaned up on her elbows and started sucking. 

She is the real deal, Tally thought.  I need to take notes.

John was enjoying their show also because his tempo and pressure increased.  Tally could feel him reaching deep inside of her.  This naturally turned her on without any effort on her part.  Her body heated up. 

Tally found herself loving the show right next to her, also.  Mark's lusty eyes and taut body taking Kylie's voluptuous form.  Her nipples were pebbled and moved up and down with her large breasts to the rhythm of Mark's hips as her mouth bobbed with each stroke of Bill's cock in her mouth.

It was hot, Tally had to admit.  This is why men love orgies, she thought.

The sheer lust of the whole situation propelled her over the edge and she cried out as she came.  John smiled triumphantly and shoved his cock as deep inside of her has he could and held it there as her pussy undulated within. 

He pulled out and told her to turn over and get on all fours, again with a smile.

Tally complied.  And watched the Kylie show going on in front of her. 

Kylie stopped sucking Bill for a second and turned to face her.  Tally bent over to kiss her which Kylie seemed to receive gratefully.  Tally's body inched forward as they kissed passionately and John went forward to stay with her.  

"So hot," he said to Mark as he watched the women kiss.  He grabbed Tally's hips and began pounding her, grunting with each thrust. 

Tally couldn't concentrate on kissing and had to stop.  Kylie motioned for Mark to stop his own in and out, which he did politely.  She then scooted herself under Tally's crotch and licked Tally's nub and John's thrusting shaft as it entered and exited Tally's hole.  Tally saw Kylie's legs spread, beckoning one of the remaining to men to enter her.  Mark gestured again for Bill to have a turn and he did this time.

Tally grew extra wet with the hard fucking and the velvety licking of her clit.  Then she locked eyes with Mark who had been admiring the scene before him as he played with himself.  Mark had an effect on her, one she couldn't deny.  But she reminded herself that she needed to be a team player to show him she could be whatever he wanted. 

She broke their gaze and shut her eyes, indulging in the rising heat from the intensity of what was being done to her body at that moment.

That's when she felt it. 

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John's finger entered her ass.  He was still pounding her and Kylie's tongue rippled quickly across her tiny, almost worn out nub.  But that finger brought whole new sensations, good ones, that gave new life to her pleasure.

Instead of vaguely enjoying, or worse-merely enduring, Tally's passions were brought to the fore again as they obliterated her overactive and insecure brain. 

She came hard again as she was fucked in her pussy and fingered in her ass while a sweet tongue danced with her clit.  All that was missing was a cock in her mouth, she thought.

Previously dormant nerve endings got attention, craved it as if she had been craving it this whole time. 

She found herself wishing to be fucked in the ass as she swam over her peak and found herself still wanting instead of sated. 

She didn't want just an ass fucking.  That would be like having just the sauce without the meat.  It would be nice at first but not substantial.  The sauce is made better with the meat the same way having her ass tickled with a stubby, thick finger made the cock inside of her more rich, more....  Just more.

Tally craved more but didn't ask for it.  She wanted Mark's cock to be the first to go there.  She stayed silent.

And squeezed as mild enjoyment resumed.  It degraded to only 'enduring' when Kylie stopped licking and shifted to her hands and knees for her own pussy and mouth to be taken by Bill and Mark again.

Tally watched as Mark and Bill shoved their cocks in her orifices and she took it.  Not only took it, loved it.  Her breasts rocked with each ram of Mark's hips against hers only making them more beautiful in Tally's opinion. Tally would be forever thankful to Kylie for making tonight so much easier.  Tally was able to stretch out of her comfort zones and even create the beginning of new ones as she experienced so many new things on this evening. 

She enjoyed a lot of it on her own.  She really did enjoy sex or she probably wouldn't have dared to enter onto this particular path in the name of ambition.  But her nerves might well have gotten the best of her tonight without Kylie. 

John's pounding grew harder, faster.  He came, creating a trend because Mark and Bill followed suit shortly after, shooting their loads inside Kylie and all over her face.

The five of them flopped all over the bed.  Naked, sweaty, and spent.

Tally must have drifted off because she woke to Kylie gently shaking her, telling her it was time to go.  She dressed quickly, always watching Mark's peaceful sleeping face, wishing he would wake and request her to stay the night. 

She reached the door with Kylie and looked back one last time to find his eyes open.  Her heart fluttered with expectation. 

He mouthed the word 'bye'.

Embarrassment and hurt took over as she hurried from the room, chastising herself for being childish.  Despite this awareness, she couldn't help hoping like a school girl that he would request her again the following night.  Alone. 

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Tally rubbed the cream Gemma gave her all over her pussy lips and anus.  It stung but an hour later she was no longer sore or swollen.  It was as if all evidence of the previous night's debauchery disappeared. 

Anticipation of time with Mark--even in a group--kept Tally wet most of the day.  It took effort not to relieve herself by coming just once.  And even a stray thought of finding Kylie and asking her to 'show her the ropes' with her licking techniques crossed Tally's mind.  She was on a slow simmer, her body aching to go up to a full blown burn. 

But she refrained.  For Mark. 

She wanted to give it all to Mark.  She knew she shouldn't feel this way.  It didn't matter.  She did and there was nothing she could do about it now. 

If he didn't request her tonight, she would deal.  Some other man would get the benefit of all of the groundwork Mark laid with her emotions.  But she hoped he would.  Even though she knew she shouldn't.

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Tally's heart wiggled when she found out her wish had been fulfilled.  Mark had requested her for another night.  Then her heart nearly attempted to leave her body when she arrived at the suite and found it empty, save Mark.  He treated her to a private tasting menu prepared by the Chef de Cuisine of the entire ship. 

He really likes me for me not just my body, Tally thought. 

It was a dangerous thought, of that she was aware. 

They clicked and connected like she had never felt with anyone else before.  He was beautiful and smart and fun.  A better man than any she had ever met before. 

But this isn't a date, she reminded herself.  This is for your career.  It's...method acting, she rationalized to herself.

Mark swirled his wine, boasting of its rarity then nibbled on Tally and repeated the same.

Their bodies met, intertwined, and matched multiple times that evening.

And the next.

It wasn't until their fifth and final night together after hours of what Tally could only call love making that she revealed her true feelings for him, admitting she wanted to quit, to be with Mark because she was falling in love with him. 

A darkness cast over his features after she spoke.  He looked away and pulled his arm out from under her head, breaking her heart in the process. 

It took everything she had, every ounce of control to not cry.  She swamped her brain with every thought of the mundane from tax returns and sunscreen all the way to the amazing from academy awards and mansions.  She distracted herself and managed to keep the hurt from swelling too far out of control. 

"I'm sorry.  I just assumed.  You said you wanted to be an actress.  I just assumed."

He caressed her cheek and went to the shower, staying in there for the full thirty minutes Tally waited before giving up and leaving. 

Embarrassed and ashamed, Tally quit the next day.

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[Two years later]

Mark arrived at his office to find the cigar arrangement laid out on his desk.  His assistant informed him it had arrived that morning with no name.  Intrigued, Mark hunted through the elegant humidor to find a small, black envelope.  In it was a hand written note that read:

 I have never thanked you, Mark, for giving me the opportunity to play the role of a lifetime in my film that came out last year.  The invitation to audition was very confusing for me for many months even after I got the role.  Only this morning have I found out that I am nominated for an Oscar for my performance.  I still have no proof that you arranged this audition for me.  None of the producers will admit such thing to me.  But the conclusion seems right. 

So I thank you for our time together as well as your role in taking my career to a new level.  While I still think it is a consolation prize compared to being with you, it is one I will accept gratefully.  Yours truly, Tally

Mark smelled the note and detected a whiff of jasmine, the scent Tally always wore.  He was gratified that he was able to give something to her since at such a personal cost she had made his time on Pleasure Cruise Lines so enjoyable.  The world would get to enjoy Tally Davies now, but not the way he had.  Never the way he had. 

Pleasure Cruise Lines: Tally Part 4

Kylie kept it going with Tally, though, licking and ramming her fingers in Tally's pussy.  After only a couple of minutes more, Tally erupted in loud screams as she came.  She didn't squirt but Mark could see lots of glistening juices all over Kylie's hand and face as she maneuvered away from Tally.  Kylie licked the juices off of her fingers and then went to Tally for a kiss and presumably some face licking. 

Tally complied without being told.  Nice, Mark thought.  She's catching on.

Mark noticed that he hadn't heard Kylie come at all.  He hoped the huge dildo would rectify that situation.

Kylie started to go over to John's cock when Mark waived her off for the moment. 

"Not yet," he ordered.  "Double fuck the dildo for a while and then you can add that in.  You can wait for five more minutes, can't you, John?" Mark asked.  All of the men were stroking their cocks.

"If I have to," John replied.  Bill still sat on the couch, his eyes never leaving the women.

Kylie got up and retrieved the huge dildo.  Tally sat up.  She no longer looked nervous though maybe still a little confused.  Mark loved how new and fresh she was.

"Kylie?  Can you show Tally how it's done?" Mark asked.

"My pleasure," Kylie replied, arching her eyebrow once again.  God, she was made for this job, Mark thought.

"Tally, get on all fours facing Mark.  I'm going to do the same in a second and we will fuck each other.  But first, I'll ease this into you.  Sound good?" Kylie asked. 

Tally nodded and did as she was told.  Mark held eye contact with Tally as she positioned herself.  He wanted to move over to the middle of the couch so he could see their pussies bang into each other while stuffed full of gigantic plastic cock.  But Tally looked like she needed a few minutes more of special attention, even if it was only eye contact for now.  He would oblige her for the moment.  Perhaps not fucking her tonight would help with the attachment issues?  Maybe only letting John and Bill both have their way with her while he ravaged Kylie--and made Tally watch.  Yes, that will be the ending to this night, Mark thought.

Mark continued gazing in her blue eyes and smiled as they widened when Kylie inserted the dildo inside Tally's pussy. 

"It's big, yes?" Mark asked her. 

"Oh my god, yes."

"Does it hurt?"

"A little, but it's okay."

"Good."

Mark cupped his balls and finally broke eye contact with her as he watched Kylie turn around on her hands and knees.  That dark pussy was facing him again.  Then she guided the dildo into her own hole and backed up into it.  She put a hand between her legs to rub her clit with her long, red tipped fingers.  I am going to fuck that pussy hard, Mark thought.  But maybe I'll have Tally suck me off first.  Then John can fuck her.

College Diary-5th Entry

We've totally ended up having sex everyday, even trying different things like a strap on, though Morgan doesn't like giving it that way- only I do.  But she likes taking it, which is cool. 

After a few weeks, Morgan was acting weird, though.  She would still have sex with me but wasn't as talkative.  I finally got her to start talking.  She started to get angry which freaked me out then she calmed down.  Basically she wants me to admit that we are a couple.  A lesbian couple.  And not just best friends and roommates messing around.  She started crying a little.  I didn't want to say we were a couple at first.  Not being defined kind of made it more fun--almost like our secret thing.  Our secret fun.  But she said she really needed me to admit it. That it was basically true. 

She was right and I didn't want her to be sad anymore.  So I admitted it.  I said that, yes, we were a couple.

I felt weird saying that out loud like that to her and it seemed like for the first couple of days something should be different but then I realized that was just my weird prejudice.  Morgan and I had been growing close this whole time.  And I do think she's hot.  I like to lick on her-- wow THAT sounds super lesbian! 

I don't know.  I don't know what I am.  We didn't go join LGBT club or anything.  We still have our friends and hang out with each other's friends.  But now we kiss sometimes when we're out with others.  And everyone seems cool with it so far.  They were a little surprised about me but I guess not about Morgan.  I guess she had been out for awhile but I didn't really know.  She never brought it up and I never thought to ask.  And since she didn't have any girls come over or anything I just didn't know.  All I know is that she makes me come really, really hard many times every single day.  And I like hanging out with her--she's my best friend.

That's good enough for now.

Actually, I'm in kind of a good place.  I'm not sure I'll need to use this journal anymore.  Hopefully not.  Maybe I'll erase it. 

[The end, for now] 

College Diary- 4th Entry

So then we switched and I had my first experience going down on a girl.  I suppose it is kind of a college rite of passage--it was bound to happen sometime.  But this was totally naturally.  We were just pleasuring each other- showing affection.  It was so hot and also kind of sweet.  And bizarre- I can't deny that.  I've only ever been with guys.  I guess it was the newness that was bizarre. 

I didn't know what I was doing.  I just tried to copy what she did to me.  Morgan was very sweet and moaned a lot for me. 

I started out just licking and fingering.  I was really getting into it and kind of lost myself sometimes.  Then I would remember and try to change positions, move my hands and tongue around, to keep it interesting for her.  She seemed really into it, but I don't know for sure. 

After twenty minutes I got the vibrator and started doing the same thing to her, angling it up inside her pussy.  I tried to be real gentle though because I didn't know how much she could take and I really didn't want to hurt her.  But she was kind of moving her hips up and down as I would pull the vibrator out.  And she was still so wet.  Her juices tasted good.  Like nothing I have ever tasted before.

She kept moving her hips up and down the whole time.  I guess I was doing something right because she stayed so wet the whole time.  Everything was very slick.  And I was getting all hot again from licking her.  And I guess from kind of fucking her with the vibrator.  It was just so hot.

She was moaning louder and louder.  And her hips were moving faster.  She was almost bucking.  I had to try hard to keep tempo with her.  I could tell she was getting close.  And so was I.  I wanted to to use one of my hands to finger myself but I didn't want to stop rubbing and fucking and licking her.  She was so turned on.  It was awesome. 

And then she came.

I didn't realize it was happening at first until everything started slowing down and her cries turned back into moans.  Then I could see a tiny bit of her pink pussy muscles spasming around the vibrator.  It was the most beautiful thing. 

I pulled the vibrator out and licked her juices up.  I couldn't get enough. 

Honestly, I was relieved.  I had actually made her come.  I guess I was nervous about that. 

So that was our really unexpected first time together.

I'll write again later. 

Thanks for reading!

College Diary- 3rd Entry

      Okay, so a lot has happened lately. Apparently, my boyfriend is a snoop. He got into my laptop while I was showering the other day. He looked at my browser history and went to this blog. I hadn’t logged out so he was able to see it. That was my bad, I guess. I made it private so nobody could see it. But I didn’t count on people sneaking into my laptop. I mean, seriously?! That has never happened to me (that I know of). What’s worse is that he broke up with me over what he read. Well, I guess that part is understandable. But I would have broken up with him over snooping on my laptop. That is messed up imo. I don’t know. So he is there yelling at me to get my shit and get out. This time he DID call me all kinds of names. It was bad—very hurtful. Nothing I have said in this blog has been to hurt him. This is really just for me. But his ego was too fragile I guess. Don’t they say women really are the stronger sex? That’s what my mom used to say all the time after she and dad fought. I always thought is was a mother thing.

Anyway, that’s not all that happened, tho. I was crying bc I was angry and sad. It hurts to be the dumpee. So I got back to my room and Morgan was there. We still hadn’t talked—it had been almost a week at this point. It was getting bad. But when she saw me, it was like the fight never happened. She hugged me and rubbed my hair. Then brought me to her bed so we could talk while she held me. She apologized and so did I. She was so sweet. She said that we are best friends and always would be. That that was what was most important, to be there for each other. And she hugged me a lot. I told her all about what happened. And she listened. She started to get angry but then calmed down when I told her it was for the best since I probably couldn’t be with someone who looks through my stuff like that. She reassured me. Told me what an asshole he was and that I was better off. Then we started talking about other things, basically everything we hadn’t been talking about the whole week we weren’t speaking. And then we stayed up hours talking like we used to. It was great. It was such a relief to be friends again. And I was feeling so glad that we weren’t fighting anymore. And I kept telling her how much I had missed her—even tho I saw her everyday!

We had been talking for hours when it happened. We just started kissing which was weird at first but then I kind of liked it. I don’t know how it all happened. Maybe it was bc it was so late-I think it was like 3 or 4 am. But then we were really making out. Morgan had her hand up my shirt and was doing something with my nipple that felt nice. Not squeezing it hard like Conner would. Then she was sucking my nipple and just like with the kissing I felt weird at first but I didn’t want to just stop bc that might hurt her feelings and she was so nice to me that whole night about the break up thing.

Then she took my hand and laid it on her breast over her shirt. It was kind of cool. Her’s are smaller. They were lighter than mine and squishy. Not as heavy and thick as mine. Then she took off her shirt and asked me to try sucking on her nipple. To just try it. That I might like it. I thought I would just try. Her nipples did look cool. Her areolas (?) were so much smaller and lighter than mine. Mine are bigger and darker red. Some guys say they’re sexy but I’ve always been self conscious about them.

So I sucked on her nipple. I tried to do just like she did to me and like all the guys I’ve ever been with have done. Except I didn’t bite. I don’t like that so I didn’t do it to Morgan. She seemed to like what I was going though bc she moaned lot. Then she stopped me and unzipped my jeans. I was kind of surprised by that but I guess I shouldn’t have been. I mean, we had been making out for like an hour at that point. I was thinking that when were done I would go to the bathroom with the vibrator anyway. But she stuck her hand down my pants just like guys used to do in high school and started fingering me and kissing me. And she WAS kind of like a guy bc she was really getting into it. But doing that with my pants on felt weird— like we were still in high school or something and afraid to get caught. I mean, we’re in college. We’re adults in our own dorm room. We had privacy. So I stopped her to pull my jeans off but she freaked out bc she thought I was freaked out. And she was apologizing over and over and I told her to chill. And then I took my jeans and panties off and laid down on my bed and spread my legs for her. Then she got it and she smiled. It was weird though bc I had spread my legs like that for many guys but I hadn’t really felt that good about it the way I did at that time spreading them for her.

But anyway, she jumped on her bed all happy like and kissed me first then went down on me. It was so weird- but in a good way. I had only ever been gone down on once before by my first boyfriend in high school. But he only did it for like two minutes before putting the condom on and getting on top of me. I really didn’t know how good it could be.

So she licks all over my clit, which I’ve still never seen, and fingers me slow. She does something with her tongue—it was smooth and soft and flat and then it was pointy and sharp. I don’t know. It felt really good. Then she stopped and I thought she wanted us to switch so I could eat her out. I was game for anything at this point. But she told me to lay back down, that she wasn’t done.

So I did and she went and got one of her vibrators. This one was longer than mine and a little wider. What was weird was that she didn’t turn it on. She just slid it slowly inside of me and out again but not all the way. And licked my clit the whole time. Then she started doing something specific but I couldn’t tell you what. All I know is that she would push it all the way in me and then kind of angle it up and down and then pull it out only a tiny bit and do it again. She did that for only a minute or so and then I came soooo hard. Seriously! I had never come that hard before by myself with my vibrator. I totally screamed which made her laugh.

Then I said that we needed to switch, that it was only fair. She asked if I was sure and I said yes.

But I will write about that after class. Gotta go.

      Thanks for reading!

College Diary- 2nd entry

Morgan said she liked my vibrator so much she went out and bought one just like it. I thought that was a little weird bc she has three already. But then again, I guess it’s kind of weird to have three vibrators.

Anyway, I have been trying to suggest different things with Conner to try to make it better for me. He was into it at first, about me making suggestions. He called me his little sex kitten. I suggested we try it in front of the window or something. Just something to spice it up, ya know. He liked that one. And it was exciting for me. His apartment is on the third floor. No one from the street saw us but I saw this guy watching from his apartment across the street. And he started playing with himself. I know it sounds gross, but that kind of turned me on. I liked that someone was watching me be fucked and enjoying it. But honestly, the sex itself wasn’t much better. Maybe even worse. Getting it from behind while almost standing up (to give a full frontal view of my tits to the neighbors, Conner said) takes away some of the length of his cock that can be inside me. And he doesn’t have much length. It’s kind of a challenge keeping it in. Which is a turn off for me. But I kind of rubbed my clit at the same time and that helped me come. And Conner loved that I rubbed my clit. And that guy across the street did, too.

So then I suggested we buy a vibrator together which was good and bad for Conner. He loved going to the sex shop with me. He almost did me right there in the place. He told me there are some places that have rooms in the back that you can rent for an hour. But this place we went to wasn’t like that. They just had merchandise. I even saw a couple of new vibrators that I wanted to try out by myself. I didn’t tell Conner that, though. I feel bad enough as it is.

We were using the vibrator for a few days and it seemed to be going well. I mean, I was loving it. Even if he fumbles around, he can’t mess up to bad since it’s a vibrator.

But I guess I was liking things a little too much. Or he noticed that I can come pretty hard now with the vibrator. I don’t know. I just know that he got mad one time during sex and then couldn’t keep it up. He got REALLY angry then and told me to get out. I was shocked. I almost broke up with him over that. He didn’t call me names or anything. But he did kick me out. That’s a pretty sucky thing to do in my opinion. I calmed down as I walked home, though. He can’t help it that he has a small penis. That’s not something he could choose. And he probably realized that I had used a vibrator before because of the way that I was getting into it. And then that made him get soft. After I thought about it, I felt really bad.

And then Morgan started laughing so hard when I told her about it. I mean really hard. I tried to explain to her that he can’t help it but she wouldn’t listen. She kept teasing me about his size with her pinky finger. And then she did it right after I came out of the bathroom after “rubbing one out” (I’m telling you—I am totally a guy!) which made me all embarrassed because I had just come and then she was making that joke so I figured she must know what I have been doing in the bathroom all these times. I started yelling at her. Telling her shut up which only egged her on, I guess. But she just wouldn’t let up. And then I yelled for her to shut the fuck up and she got all mad and said that I couldn’t take a joke and stormed out. I was already asleep when she came home hours later. That was two days ago and we still haven’t spoken to each other. I kind of sucks. I miss her. She’s my best friend, after all. But I think she should apologize. I mean even Conner did. If he can apologize to me, then so can she.

Class is about to start and I think the guy sitting behind me might be reading over my shoulder so I should go.

Thanks for reading!